Too lazy to blog recently. The holidays didn't turn out how I wanted it to be. I haven't got a job, not because I didn't bother find one, but it's cos I can't find a good one. I can't go do stuff I want. I can't shop. I can't have steamboat. I don't have any money!

And to top it all off, I find out that my brother is more bitchy and diabolical than I would ever be. I don't behave the way people want not because I think it is fun to rebel. I don't behave the way people want me to behave because that is against what I believe in. I swear even though my parents hate it. I stay up late despite my parents constantly nagging at me. I don't greet my elders despite my parents and self-righteous pussy of a brother telling me to do so. And even when I do things people want me to do, it is not because I am listening to them. It's because it is against my beliefs. I don't do drugs not because my parents tell me not to. I don't smoke because I myself do not like it. I don't cut myself not because everyone tells me not to. I don't cut myself because I think it is immature and stupid. I am 17, and I should be given the freedom to think. It may be wrong to people, but to me it may not be. I didn't ask to be born, you know.

Recently I have decided to spice up my wardrobe with more colour. I got more bright coloured clothes, like pink and aqua. It doesn't mean that I'm sissy or whatever. My parents have been labeling me as gay for being more vibrant. I just can't stand homophobes and people who stereotype instantly.

I am fucking pissed right now. this is not just a post anymore. This is a sign of help. I AM UP FOR FUCKING ADOPTION! ANY KIND SOUL WILLING TO TAKE ME IN!? I'M NOT A TROUBLE CHILD! I AM JUST SUFFERING FROM SEVERE MENTAL ABUSE FROM A CRACKHOUSE! TAKE ME IN!

Today is a good hair day!